Bill Murray

This little guy is my life now.

Recent.

I don't have internet anymore which blows. We got cut off for not paying the NTL bill. Life is strange without it.

We're moving out soon which I'm pretty sad about but I'm looking forward to finding a new house. I'm gonna miss Jack and Fry loads.

Myself, Chris and Robb are heading to Japan in one month. We've booked some places to stay and made some plans and I am stupidly excited. Hello Kitty Land!!

I finally got a job. I work in Topshop now, it's a bit mind numbing. Everyone just walks around pretending to look busy and telling each other how cute they look. Its strange, but awesome to have a job again and it pays decent.

So far, summer fucking rules. Lally's thrash party was the best party of all time.

In Time have their first gig at the end of August which is ages away but I'm already terrified.

Yes.

Life is so fucking good right now. I feel like I'm living in my own little bubble where everything is awesome and nobody hates each other and there is nothing to worry about in life except drinking the beers and having the times. (Anyone who witnessed me being the crankiest person alive today can fuck off, that was my hangover talking.)

Derry is back tomorrow which fucking rules. As much fun as I'm having right now, I get sad going to bed by myself every night.

Freaks and Geeks. What a fucking show. I can't believe I slept on this for so long. Best cast of all time. I am madly in love with James Franco. Megavideo is my best friend. Dooooo it.

The Real Shit

It's weeks like these that make me forget about any regret that I had felt about not going away for the summer.

Gigs, parties, mountains, walks, jogs, frisbee, karaoke, cans, whopper chats and mates. Life is good.

Awesomeness

Today when it turned 9am and sleep still hadn't come I decided to go for a walk. I ended up at the Botanic gardens, which I have never been to despite living in the area for over 3 years. It was really nice. I spent at least half an hour in the big greenhouse pretending I was on holidays. It was so hot and the humidity was overwhelming. It was delicious. Although my hair went fucking mental and my camera fogged up.

I don't usually do stuff on my own anymore. I won't usually venture outside the house unless I have the prospect of someone to hang out with. I did however have Disfear, Descendents, Despise You and the Down and Outs to keep me company. Chris always gives out about listening to his ipod alphabetically, but I actually quite like it. I find the D's and the I's most enjoyable.

I'm watching this movie with Jack, it's really good so far.

Annoyances

I really fucking miss going to the cinema. I went to see "I Love You, Man" today, which is the funniest movie I have seen since, probably, Superbad. GO SEE IT. We went to the Savoy which was strange and out of the ordinary and I felt all jittery and awkward and I had to look at the menu at the kiosk and they didn't have nachos which immediately made me want nachos more than anything else ever.

I want a pug so bad it hurts.

Derry is gone and I am lonesome.

I've got so little to do with my time that I've started watching the new version of 90210. It's utter shite. I am the queen of bad television these days, which is shit because before I moved in here and we got NTL, I hadn't watched tv since 2003. Now I watch absolute crap like the Hills and Gossip Girl. What has happened to me?

I'm so excited about going to Japan because I've wanted to go for so long but I can't stop being totally bitter about not going to California.

The weather is decent but I can't sleep at night and I end up sleeping in till 4 or 5 every day and missing all the niceness.

My hair is getting stupidly long but I can't afford a haircut.

Fuck this.

Fuck college, fuck it in the fucking ear, or somewhere else really fucking uncomfortable. It's fucking stupid.

Done.

I watched 5 seasons of Greys Anatomy in under 2 weeks.
95 episodes. 63 hours.
My life has lost all meaning.

Frustration Tour

3 countries, 6 million bands, 22 cans of diet coke, fucking ferries, lots of driving, power naps, LOADS of weed, Adders, Negi John, Tom Smalley, Southern Ben, Tesco, SAFEBURYS, 16" pizzas for £4, Easter eggs....easter eggs, Weatherspooooons, the SIZE of that fuckin child, Dragonforce on expert, fun fun fun.

Obsession.

Every so often I become wildly obsessed with things. Some examples over the last few months have been cooking, kitchen utensils, American Tourister vintage suitcases and working out. Working back throughout the years there was Wonder Woman, pugs, Wallace and Gromit and sheep. To name a few. Some of these are shortlived, some have lasted.

My most recent obsession is with the art of the bento box. I've always been pretty interested in Japanese culture and food (I love food), but my new obsession was triggered by Chris buying me my very own bento box. It is very similar to this one:


He also got me an adorable set of pink chopsticks that come in a little pink polka dot bag. Lovely! Chris rules. I spent about 7 hours yesterday looking at blogs and pictures of bentos and it's mental how much effort people put into the preperation and presentation, and then blog about it every day.

As a result, the main reason I now want a job is so that I can pack awesome bento lunches every day. No longer do I care about combating my boredom or solving my money issues or getting my mum off my back. All I want in life is a reason for a packed lunch. Is that so much to ask?

So, as previously mentioned, I was supposed to go on a J1 this summer. The person I was going with pulled out so the night before my embassy interview, I freaked out and booked flights to go to Japan instead. Pretty happy with my decision and seriously excited to go, to drool over the Harajuku girls, and climb Mount Fuji.

I've been losing my mind recently, mostly out of boredom. I have become a paranoid, bipolar, self-loathing, everybody-else-loathing freak. I spend waaaay to much time at home eating all the food and then moaning about putting on weight.

I've been making more of an effort to get out of the house to try to counteract this. I went to see the cliffs of Moher last saturday. They are pretty amazing. I don't know if they are 7-wonders-of-the-world-candidate-worthy amazing, but I liked them all the same. I really like Ireland. Sometimes I forget how much there is to see and do here.

Outbreak are playing Galway on April 6th (ROAD TRIP!) and Dublin on the 7th. I was heartbroken when they cancelled their tour last year. I don't like them or listen to them as much as I used to, but I'm still so excited to finally see them live.

The dublin line up is DELISH. You should listen to Bacchus, they are seriously good.

Mortality

I found out today that my aunt has lung cancer and has been given 3-6 months to live. I'm not close with her or anything but it's still pretty shocking. I usually only ever see her at family occasions like weddings and funerals and such, and I'd usually have a buzz with her while out for a cigarette.

I realised that the next funeral I go to will probably be hers. And somehow I don't think the smokers in my family will be buzzing as much as usual.

Blurgh

Aaaargh.

I hate being under pressure to make decisions that are going to affect my life months from now. Too many choices need to be made by tomorrow afternoon. I am frustrated and confused.

This weekend was a delicious mix of sweet bands, road trips, free tattoos, cupcakes, awesome hangouts and too much booze. For the first time in my life I legitimately heard an Australian talk about there being a shark in the water. Yusss.

I'm going to London on thursday. Tell me some sweet touristy shit to check out while my friends are in work.

This week

I hate:
-the first pancake phenomenon
-people who take themselves too seriously
-money issues
-the uncleanable bathroom
-the black hole that is my bedroom

I dig:
-road trips
-free holidays
-noodle soup
-RZL DZL

You're wrong. Dead wrong.

I went to the bank and applied for a big 'ol loan. Free money! Probably a bad idea, but I really want to go to America and nobody's giving me a frickin job. I haven't even been approved for the loan yet and I just bid on loads of stuff on ebay. I have no self control. But I might have sweet new records. Hurray!

This weekend should be awesome. Road trip to Belfast on Friday. Love it. And maybe more tattoos!

LISTEN TO FASHION:
www.myspace.com/fashionablestunners


And these will be for sale at both gigs, lovingly made by Jack, Dec, Chris and myself, with lots of talk about dicks and deepthroat and gag reflexes. Fun times:

Everybody should watch this movie:

PANCAKES!!

Today is like Christmas for me. I'm so stoked.
Stall to Classnevin if you want some vegan nom noms!

Translation

I do not understand my brother. I am in Disneyland with just him and my little sister and we're having trouble communicating.
He keeps coming out with the most random one liners.

Here's an example. We're sitting on the plane waiting to take off. Absolutely no dialogue leading up to this:

Will: Would that be food?
Me: What?
Will: Would that be food?
Me: Would what be food?
Will: That.
(Just so you know, there's no pointing, no gesturing, he's not even looking anywhere other than directly into my eyes.)
Me: What the fuck are you talking about?
Will: Never mind.
Me: ???????

Waiting in line for a rollercoaster:

Will: Unless they open different sections of the park.
Me: What??
Will: Unless they open different sections of the park.
Me: Stop talking to me.
Will: Sorry.

I can't wait to go home and talk to people I get.
Miss y'all x x

Doppelganger

Loltats FTW

Who said you can't buy happiness...

My mum bought me these. YES IT'S A LEOPARDPRINT FRYING PAN!!

And the wonderful Chris got me these:

All life's problems can be solved by wonderful kitchen things.

I didn't get any sleep again last night. Third full night this week. And I slept from 3pm until half 10 so there is not a chance I'm going to be sleeping tonight either.

I went to buy a rearview mirror in an Opel garage today and ended up fighting with everyone. People are pricks. Still no mirror.

16 Candles is about me. Molly Rongwald's sister got married the day after her birthday and her whole family forgot her birthday. THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO ME!

Currently stoked on upcoming free holidays, tattoos, cooking using my new stuff.

Currently watching Army of Darkness. Yeeeeeah. Hail to the King, baby.

Happy Valentine's day y'all.

Muddled

I didn't sleep on sunday night or last night but I slept for 13 hours on monday night. Now all the days have blurred and I'm not sure what's going on. I'm so confuddled.

Everything's working backwards. I have a very promising job almost-offer for San Francisco but still no job offers for here, and if I don't get a job here, I can't go to San Francisco and take the job there. It's fucked and stupid.

I went on a road trip to Laois today with Derry. We left at 7am. I love driving to Laois with Der, we always have the chats and a nice time. I wrote him a lovely song on the way home but I don't think he appreciated it.

Last night I watched 3 Nicholas Cage movies in row last night. I fucking hate Nicholas Cage.
But the Wickerman is hilarious. WATCH THIS:

Anchored

My life has lost momentum.
Time is fucking flying by but I feel stationary.
I have wasted 6 months of my life.

Peep show

Get into it.

Success

I have finally conquered vegan cupcakes. YOSSS.

I ate so much I think I might vom.

Job interview tomorrow, fingers crossed.

In the meantime my sister is gonna pay me to clean her house.

My American dream is back on the cards.

Pressure's on.

I'm going on the biggest job hunt of my life tomorrow. If nothing comes out of it, I will officially give up hope.

Last weekend was class. Chris heatbutted me in the nose and Eddie punched me in the face. What more could a girl ask for.

Save Your Breath and Rich are such awesome dudes and I feel a bit bad that I missed both their gigs. Whoops.

Cooking is my new favourite hobby, now that weather is seriously putting me off jogging. Butternut squash chips are delicious. I'm gonna try make chicken noodle soup tomorrow, and some cakes for Derry's brithday bash even though last time I tried to make vegan cupcakes they just tasted like bread.

I booked flights for London in March regardless of the fact that I haven't got a cent to my name.

I finally bought an Mbox today, after saying that I'm going to for the last two years. Again, with my no money. Hurray for credit cards and Derry paying half. Hopefully I will use my infinite free time on learning how to use pro-tools properly. I've been doing it in college for like 3 years at this stage, but haven't bothered learning to do anything apart from fading in and out. And adding loads of reverb.

I really, really hope I get a job this week. Fear is setting in. I fucking hate how stressful not having money is. I'll keep myself distracted for another while anyway.

Currently listening to: Trap Them - Sleepwell Deconstructor.

Disneyland - Take 2!!

So my mum rings me up the other day looking for a favour, which usually means she wants me to give the kids a lift somewhere/help with homework/do all the santa shopping etc. But this time the "favour" she's asking me to do is bring my younger siblings to Disneyland. They've been hassling her to take them for ages to bring them but she's not arsed so I'm really "helping her out".

FUCKIN FREE TRIP!! YEEEAH!
I used go away on a lil trip every couple of months, thanks the the joys of Ryanair, but due to my inability to get a job, I haven't been away since I got back from Canada last August. So this is the best shit ever. I'm so stoked. Even though I have to go with my siblings, and I went to disneyland last year and it's not as amazing as I had dreamed all my life.
Just thinking about planning what to bring and packing one of my new bags and my new vanity case that I got for christmas, and getting a plane and going to stay in a hotel with a swimming pool and getting to go on ALL THE ROLLERCOASTERS unlike last time, arrrgh it's just too exciting!!!

So I'm going in like 3 and a half weeks and I'm staying in this here mad snazzy hotel:

Best thing about it... BUFFET BREAKFAST! In France, the fucking land of chocolate crossaints!! I'm gonna eat ALL the food. Actually no, the best thing is that my parents are paying for it. I actually couldn't be more excited. I feel so spoiled. AND THEY THINK I'M DOING THEM A FAVOUR.

Best of all this is totally distracting me from the fact that I have still had no luck on the job front. Things are really starting to look pretty bleak and I'm doing my best not to give up all hope of getting to go on my loooong awaited J1. Argh.

Anyways. Life rules. So does breakfast. In my efforts to be more productive I've been spending a lot more time cooking and making delicious food. I've been spoiling Derry rotten. This morning I made a full vegan fry-up, yesterday I made vegan pancakes, and the day before I made vegan grilled cheese bagels (I was starting out slow). I'm thinking french toast tomorrow.

I've also been working really hard on trying to eat like a normal person. Today I ate mushrooms, onion and butternut squash. I don't think I've ever eaten three vegetables in one day before. There has been very, very, VERY few days in my life that I've eaten even one vegetable. I'm making a huge effort to wean myself onto them. Last year I began eating jalapenos (only from the cinema), and I have since moved onto chili peppers (which I now put in EVERYTHING) and... well yeah that's pretty much it. 2 vegetables. Wahoo! So today was great progress.

Jogging is not going well, I think I'm getting unfitter. But I reckon it's a lot to do with the shitty weather. It's hard to push yourself to go another lap or whatever when there's rain in your eyes and the cold is making your chest hurt and your nose is running like crazy and the wind feels like it's slapping you in the face. But at least I haven't quit yet!

Someone get me a job please and then my life will be complete.

And listen to Think I Care and then your life will be complete.

Still going...

I'm still jogging, so the phase lasted more than two weeks. Fuck yeah!

My parents made me go see a physiotherapist yesterday. I have had a funny knee for the last I-don't-know-how-many years, and my parents freaked when they heard how much I was jogging because apparently it's really bad for your knees. They keep telling me to go power-walking instead... Not happening.

So I went anyway and even though I've never had major problems with my knee, I managed to convince myself that yer man would tell me that not only could i never run again, but I could also never walk and that my knee was in fact made of playdough and they would have to amputate it and attach my feet to my femurs like the granda in King of the Hill.

Luckily this didn't happen. Apparently I don't have a dodgey knee at all, but I do have slightly fallen arches and tight quadriceps which is causing my knee cap to slightly pop in and out of where it should be positioned. I just need to get some special insoles and do some excercises to loosen my quads and we should be right as rain!

I'm really pleased with how things are going. All my clothes fit me again.

My super-posi buzz unfortunately didn't last and I spent most of this week being cranky. I still have no job which is getting kind of scarey because if I don't get one in the next few weeks, there is no way I'm going to be able to pay for my J1 on time.

My brain kind of stopped working this week. I keep making the stupidest mistakes and keep fucking shit up. Probably the worst of the bunch was when I was parking in college on wednesday and I just 100% forgot to hit the brakes and drove straight into the car parked in front of me. It was so retarded. I just sat there for a few mins wondering what the fuck just happened. Luckily it was a jeep and had one of those metal bar things at the back of it so I didn't damage it at all, and my car isn't too badly hurt, just fucked up the paint a bit. But still, WHO FORGETS TO STOP??

Ah well.

It's Mags' birthday today. She is lovely. I am excited about going out tonight as I haven't seen her or Laila in far too long.

I'm going to go into River Island today and beg them to give me my job back.

Currently listening to : Derry snoring.

POSI UP

I haven't felt this good about life in a long time.

EVERYTHING IS AWESOME.

Derry's home tomorrow. Yaaaay. He's not gonna recognise me.

Things I need in my life